at the party on saturday tyler and i went upstairs for a while so we could talk and for whatever reason we were talking about being gay and why we wish we’re straight sometimes and when it went quiet between us for a minute and i remember exactly what was said between us and i don’t think i’ll forget anytime soon

i said “i think the worst part of being gay, especially at our age, is liking somebody who you know isn’t even capable of liking you back on that level.”

and he said “that’s exactly how i feel about patrick.”

my heart honestly breaks for him he’s really cheerful about it in front of everybody but when he opens up to me i can tell that he actually has really intense feelings for patrick that he knows will never be reciprocated and it’s tearing him up inside and the worst part is that patrick KNOWS but he just refuses to acknowledge it

i honestly can’t even imagine how upset i would be if somebody i liked knew about my feelings but didn’t bother to let me know directly that they don’t feel the same way

patrick isn’t a bad guy don’t get me wrong i like him and he’s very interesting to talk to and i’ve had a few good conversations with him but he is honestly one of the most emotionally stunted human beings that i’ve ever met and i don’t think that he’s ever been in love the way tyler is with him and i guess i think that if patrick knew what being in love with somebody felt like then he would probably be a lot more likely to talk to tyler about tyler’s feelings but he’s never been in love and he’s not gay and he doesn’t know what it’s like to be in love with his best friend

and it just makes me really upset that tyler’s feelings are unrequited and it makes me really angry that patrick won’t even talk about it with him and it makes me really really sad that tyler’s affections are being wasted on a guy who won’t talk about anything regarding romantic feelings or sexuality or anything of that nature

in short tyler is just such a wonderful guy and he has so much to offer and give to a significant other and his affections are being wasted and i know that he’s young and there’s hope yet but he’s just such a good person and he deserves to be happy and he deserves to be with the person he wants to be with and it just makes me so sad.